July 3rd
Grief and loss are funny things. They catch you off guard all the time. Something silly like making deviled eggs will tear you up :) My brother-in-law Jim killed himself July 3rd and our family has been in a really tough time of grief and questioning why. I have experienced death in my family before but it's been grandparents or accidents. Suicide is a whole different ball game. Along with all the grief come feelings of betrayal and questions, ton's of questions. The hard thing is for us is that there are no answers. I'll be honest and say that I've been mad at God. I had great plans for Jim. He was a great guy with a big heart. Him dying didn't fit into my plans anywhere! At first the shock was so massive that I almost couldn't feel anything. Then I got angry! Really angry. I love God, my faith is a firm unwavering foundation that holds me together, but I threw a fit! It was a two year o...