Tough week

A few years ago God gave Bryan and I a vision for a place where people can come for rest and healing.  A place with animals, a huge garden, and an orchard.  Since then I have been under constant spiritual attack.  Usually focused on the animals.  I absolutely love my cow Lucy.  Milking is something that I enjoy (most of the time).  And working in the garden is  healing for me.  I can just relax and not think about anything else.  Well Lucy calved a week ago and since then has had  milk fever.  I have  been stressed about it all week.  Then on Friday I ran over my daughters dog Benji.  I was so discouraged.  The thoughts going through my mind went something like this.  "Who the heck do you think you are, God could not have called you to any kind of work with animals!  All you do is kill them or they get sick.  Besides why would God want to use you.  You obviously don't have the skills needed for this.  You must have heard wrong.  Just give up............" On and on it went.  All day Friday was one long battle with me hanging on to the life that God has given me and satan trying to steal it away.  Saturday morning I finally realized what was going on as I was reading my Bible.  I've been reading in Ephesians and that morning I was on the last chapter.  It talked about the armor of God.  The verse that really stuck out to me was verse 16 "In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one."   I'm not  a name it and claim it kind of person. But I do try to pursue after God wholeheartedly and follow what he says to do.  Trusting him for the outcome.  I believe in the power of prayer. And I believe that in Jesus' name there is power to do miracles.  After reading that verse I realized that I was in a battle and not only was I not using my sword but I wasn't using my shield either.  I started praying that God would heal Lucy in Jesus name' and prayed against the spiritual attacks going on against me.  A miracle happened.  God restored my peace in the calling and vision that He has given me.  And an hour later I went to check on Lucy and she was great.  Eating again, warm ears, and wet nose. She is still doing great today two days later :)

 God worked a miracle for me and he can do the same for you if you ask.