I'm remembering...
Hi all!
Like many of you I'm working from home due to COVID-19 and a stay at home order in my state. It's been an interesting and challenging 5 weeks so far and I'm learning a ton about myself and my relationships aka my marriage. Man alive the first few weeks were rough as we adjusted to being with each other constantly! I'm learning what keeps me healthy and motivated and what doesn't. I'm learning that the food I eat really truly affects how I feel about myself. Apparently... those amazing crispy, crunchy coconut cookies from Costco aren't good for me and don't actually give me life. I'm learning how dependant I am on the people around me to feel like I have value and worth *dang it!* and how much I need joy, laughter and gratitude in my life! I'm learning that when everything else in my life is on pause God isn't and the things that he made me passionate about aren't either. In fact the more time I have that I'm not running at a crazy rate of speed trying to chase feeling like I have value by performing well and take time to sit and be with myself and with God I'm remembering.
I'm remembering...
What it's like to sit quietly, not praying, just listening, as God speaks over me and reminds me who I truly am in the depths of my soul.
What it's like to sit and have a conversation with my husband just because I like to talk with him.
What it's like to watch the squirrels and birds in my yard and simply enjoy God's creation.
What it's like to do something just because I like to do it not because it has to be done.
What it's like to be. Not do. Just be.
Psalm 139 1-18
"You have searched me, Lord, and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely. You hem me in behind and before, and you lay your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain. Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,” even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts,God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand—when I awake, I am still with you."
As you wrestle with what "normal" looks these days I'd love to hear about what God is challenging you with and what some of the things are that you're going to be letting go of moving forward.
Like many of you I'm working from home due to COVID-19 and a stay at home order in my state. It's been an interesting and challenging 5 weeks so far and I'm learning a ton about myself and my relationships aka my marriage. Man alive the first few weeks were rough as we adjusted to being with each other constantly! I'm learning what keeps me healthy and motivated and what doesn't. I'm learning that the food I eat really truly affects how I feel about myself. Apparently... those amazing crispy, crunchy coconut cookies from Costco aren't good for me and don't actually give me life. I'm learning how dependant I am on the people around me to feel like I have value and worth *dang it!* and how much I need joy, laughter and gratitude in my life! I'm learning that when everything else in my life is on pause God isn't and the things that he made me passionate about aren't either. In fact the more time I have that I'm not running at a crazy rate of speed trying to chase feeling like I have value by performing well and take time to sit and be with myself and with God I'm remembering.
I'm remembering...
What it's like to sit quietly, not praying, just listening, as God speaks over me and reminds me who I truly am in the depths of my soul.
What it's like to sit and have a conversation with my husband just because I like to talk with him.
What it's like to watch the squirrels and birds in my yard and simply enjoy God's creation.
What it's like to do something just because I like to do it not because it has to be done.
What it's like to be. Not do. Just be.
Psalm 139 1-18
"You have searched me, Lord, and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely. You hem me in behind and before, and you lay your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain. Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,” even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts,God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand—when I awake, I am still with you."
As you wrestle with what "normal" looks these days I'd love to hear about what God is challenging you with and what some of the things are that you're going to be letting go of moving forward.
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